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AmericanBardo's avatar

Thank you for your beautiful but very sad comment. It is very moving. I feel so helpless to do anything when I see the destruction of nature and life all around us. I can only keep on trying in the little way I can. I wish I could have visited Kauai. Life is so miraculous and now it is all disappearing because of a destructive and extremely trivial-minded cultural mindset.

I did not have a very peaceful childhood in terms of family and school. So I spent most of my childhood (and my free time in adulthood) walking in the forests of the northeast, hiking and camping. The best memories I have are in nature with my family or alone. More recently, for eight years, I lived in a rural area of upstate NY next to a marsh. In the years after 2015, the whole marsh was dead. In the evenings, the swamp was silent. There were no frogs, crickets or other insect sounds.

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Jeanette Estrada's avatar

I'm sorry you never made it here too, especially when it was beautiful. I can identify with you unpleasant childhood. My pony, cats and dogs were my best friends. I spent most of my time exploring the farm and woods with them. I think it's why I've always been in tune with the flora and fauna. As I got older I got into training and showing horses, and the many hours on horseback were my only joy.

Here on Kauai, I am horseless, for the first time in my life, and I was already 💔, but making the best of it I could. I was surrounded by beauty, singing birds day and night, and bathed in sunshine, and rainbows. Emotionally and physically healthy, but now....not so much. Looking at the dead pasture grass, and the once fat, shiny, healthy cows and horses that filled the rolling hillsides...either moved or now ribby w/unhealthy hair coats. The little bearded lizards that used to run away from me, now run to me across the lawn. Stand at my feet and look up at me, as if they're begging for help. They're skin stretched over bone, they're starving. I think they must be spreading insecticides... as well as perhaps herbicides, or some sort of chemical that is especially targeting indigenous plants/trees and those that produce food and medicinal plants. We used to have a mosquito the laid eggs in the bromelaides, their name even reflects that, but the water standing anywhere is yellow/ brown, and I have not seen mosquito larvae.

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AmericanBardo's avatar

That is heart wrenching. I can't bear to see the creatures being poisoned. There are also genetic deformations in birds where their beaks curve to the point that they cannot eat properly.

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